Bit-by-Bit with Nihra & Family

Summer is almost over..just 2 more days..then its autumn again. Setelah ditinggalkan ayah in December, I have been working really hard (ia ke??!!), going through emotion over berita Ucu, then berita SV ku.. proposalku.. Ucu? getting better..alhamdullilah, ingatan bertambah baik-dah boleh sembahyang. She's taking medicine yg berharga RM2000++ utk 15 biji!! yg peliknya, dr pakar dia kata kalau beli kat farmasi, it will cost RM8000, but with him, only RM2000 je..ada ke patut??!! SV? today is his last day..tak wish pun good bye..'cause it's not goodbye yet!! He wants to transfer me to AUT..boleh ke???!! thus, lupakan confirmationku!!! but life goes on..still working on my research yg tiada keputusan..abg tersayang semakin rancak mengutip data..lagi 2 minggu nak balik-hoorreyy!! aqil..semput pula..tapi dah ok dah.. my sister in law and her friends dtg bercuti..sorry sahabat2ku di albany..tak sempat nak kenalkan. cuti sakan diaorg-sewa kete and drove themselves to Welling...

2 days ago call Ucu. Alhamdullillah, she knows me. Bolehlah berborak-borak. But throughout the conversation dia asyik sebut mata dia tak berapa nampak and she doesn't know why dia sakit. Ucu kata sebelum ni tak ada apa2, sihat aje, luka pun dah baik, tapi sekarang sakit2 satu badan, rasa lain sangat. I think she doesn't really knows she have brain cancer. So, she's a bit worried. Dia kata anak kecik lagi.. ulfi(her oldest daughter) nak amik upsr mcmana, mamanya sakit..The only things I can say, doa ucu, insyallah sembuh.. My mom said, dia boleh mandi sendiri, makan pun berselera dan dia ingat nak sembahyang, tapi bila dia sembahyang, dia tak rukuk atau sujud..berdiri tegak je..most probably she doesn't remember ayat2 bacaan. Rasa lega sangat dapat berborak dgn Ucu. Minggu ni, dia buat rawatan radioterapi dan juga rawatan kampung. Yakin pada 'keajaiban ALLAH'..anything can happen.. Today meeting with my SV..gave me a new direction for my research and also t...

This morning got the latest update from abah. There's not only one titik kanser but about seven!! Ada satu besar yg menolak saraf mata causing her to be blind, just nampak mcm bentuk sabit sahaja. But ALHAMDULLILLAH ucu dah sedar, boleh makan dan minum, boleh berjalan ke toilet dan kenal org sekeliling bila bercakap. She will ask for her son, Hamdan, tapi her memory relapse juga. Pagi dah beritahu ada kat hospital, then petang dia tanya lagi where she is. The Dr cannot to any pembedahan sbb cancernya dah merebak..but they going to do radioterapi utk mengurangkan kesakitan. Tapi berita yg paling sedih, the doctor said biasanya kalau keadaan mcm ni, hayatnya tak panjang..sebulan-dua sahaja!!  I know, ajal dan maut hanya ALLAH yg tahu. Kita yg sihat belum tentu hidup panjang. Mak said..dah bahagian dia.. sayang mcmana pun, kalau ALLAH dah jemput, kena lepaskan. The only we can do now adalah doa dan buatlah sedekah atas nama dia. Is this why I'm here, in New Zealand??!! So I can ...

Its a long weekend 'cause of Auckland Anniversary today..don't know what its about..yg penting cuti!! Its been raining since Saturday, which is nice.. On Saturday, skype with abg and family. They gave me a bad news..ucu @ maksu tak sedar diri..2 years ago dia buang one of her breast 'cause of breast cancer and ever since then luka dia tak baik sangat. Last 6 month she had another chemotherapy kat tulang belkang pula..the last 2 weeks dia asyik pening kepala. Then on saturday, dia muntah then terus pengsan. Paksu ingat, tak ada apa2, sbb ucu mmg selalu pengsan tiba2. BUt she never wake up, and in the morning they took her to Hospital Abdul Samad. The Dr did a brain scan, and there's cancer!! When she finally wake up, dia tak kenal orang!! Yesterday, anak2 dia pegi melawat pun dia tak kenal. Today the Dr is going to do another MRI, to see if the cancer attack the whole brain or just one part. Now I'm praying its not worse, boleh dirawat, ucu akan kenal semula all of...